I planned all day for this.
I planned the conversation we were going to have, how i was going to look, how everything would flow. I planned every detail in my head.
See I live in my head, I overthink everything although it gives me anxiety, it seems to always prepare me for whatever might happen.
Everytime he’s around all thoughts go out the window all plans are cancelled, my brain is looking at me for the answers. They also want to know why I just went blank and everything we had setup disappeared.
It’s YOU! It’s always been you and I don’t know why or How you do this to me. I get light headed, tongue tied, confused and flustered just from one smile. What is that about?!
I see myself trying to entertain you, Pick your brain on what ur thinking, all thoughts of me and my feelings are gone; they are now replaced on how i can make you happy! Why is that?!?! The feeling of not having control over myself when you are around is scary, it makes me want to do anything for you no matter how much my brain protest. My heart always takes over, she has no idea what she’s doing but WE can’t help it when it comes to you….
How do you do this to me? Do You Even know?!
“Gonna wear that dress you like, skin-tight
Do my hair up real, real nice
And syncopate my skin to how you’re breathing
‘Cause I just wanna look good for you, good for you, uh-huh
I just wanna look good for you, good for you, uh-huh
Let me show you how proud I am to be yours
Leave this dress a mess on the floor
And still look good for you, good for you,
Uh-huh, uh-huh, ah…
Uh-huh, uh-huh, ah, mhm…”